I want to move on, but I can't?

You love him hate him .Well you need to sit him down and tell him what you are feeling and that he has hurt you! If he is going away then this is the time to break away from him,and move on with your life.When i was young I was infatuated with this older person he was 4 years older than me ,.he was a friend of my brothers .He was asked to stay at our home,unfortunatly ,he took advantage of me.When you are young you think that you love someone,but its not true love even though you think it is .Anyways he started to hang with my sister after me ,he would do things to make me jealous and mad,and would,nt come back to the house to sleep,he told me all kinds of stories anyways my mother told me if i married him she would disown me ! Well one day he introduced me to this guy,we started to date he got jealous ,he said he would give me a ride home well he started to hit me and pull my hair I had a bruise on my face and he tried to run the car into a tree to scare me although i was screamming in the car no one would help.He dropped me off at home i did,nt dare tell my father he would have killed him and my mother also.I did tell the guy I was dating he got pissed .I once saw him years later and shcrugged him off I did hear he got married I asked him, if he hit his wife as he did me and walked away .This guy was thrown out of his house and went from house to house to mooch he could,nt even keep a job he was a BumI see now why my mother said that to me she saw right through him when I could,nt