Contemplating suicide its scary i just want the pain to stop though :(?

Ok so I read the topic of this because I have tried to commit suicide twice in my life when I was 16 and I was told that I had 5 days to live as my liver was poisoned. I went on a drip and lucky enough my liver function level slowly increased. I saw how upset people were when they came to visit me and I was so selfish to decide to end my life when I had my boyfriend and friends and family. But now that I have read this, I find that it is a little ridiculous that your contemplating suicide over a girl you dont know that well. You spent a few days with her and now you think your inlove. Let me tell you that your not. She has a boyfriend you need to respect that. I think you should pick yourself up and move on this is going to happen to you alot in the future, everyone goes through break ups but this isnt even a break up. I think you should move on and give her the space she needs. If not all your going to do is push her away and make yourself look clingy and that is NOT attractive in a male at all. You havent even experienced anything yet. Move on. I wish you all the luck. Try and stay strong.